Stressing out.

Have you ever had one of those days where you worry about everything? That’s today for me. Over the last week I’ve had a lot of big ideas come to me that each have an even bigger to-do list, and I’m starting to feel the pressure. Especially in regards to this job hunt. I know I’ve barely started, but the weight of work permits and visas and permission to stay in certain places gets a little tough to read after a while. I’m so thankful for those in my life that have listened to my venting and been quick to reassure me that this is a great step for me, and that I’ll be successful in this endeavor.

But it’s hard.

Knowing what I need to do any when I need to have it done by doesn’t alleviate the feeling of 800 pounds of work on my shoulders. Nor does worrying about it get anything done. I’m feeling almost trapped beneath everything I have going on right now, but I’m trying to reconcile that feeling as a good thing. It means that I want to fight to get out from underneath that stress, and in the words of many Mainers, “get ‘er done.” I’ve made the decision to outsource a little of my stress, by having someone help me with my logo as well as refreshing my CV - because honestly, I can only gush about myself so many times before I feel like a giant poser.

So how am I managing with all this stress? Not terribly, I suppose. Delegating tasks like my new logo and my resume has really helped me prioritize a few other things, like working on my portfolio and rounding up applications, but I feel like there are things I haven’t given much thought to yet. Things like getting permission to work in another country - what does a critical skills permit in Ireland really mean for me, and am I qualified? What employers can even sponsor one of those? Are their recruitment agencies that can help me?

That’s how the spiral starts, and I start getting sweaty. It’s gross, I’m aware, but it’s the truth.

I’m trying to inject some more self-care into my life, and it has been helping a lot. Even little things, like painting my nails, going to bed early, and making myself a nice cup of tea in the evenings really boosts my mood and makes dealing with everything else much easier. My therapist recommended that I try and make time for self-care during the workday too, so I’ve been doing things like taking a quick walking break, making myself even more tea, and this morning I even put on an under-eye mask to get through my first hour of the day! I looked ridiculous, but it did take the edge off the Monday blues and for that, I’m very grateful.

I’m going to be doing some serious aromatherapy and deep breathing these next few weeks as I start compiling all of the materials and applications to get this whole job hunting process started. If you haven’t heard from me, I’m probably drowning in job descriptions and immigration laws.

How do you deal with stress? I’d love to hear your tips and tricks for getting through a mountain of work or something that seems impossible. Also, another shoutout to any hiring folks in Ireland or the UK, hit me up!